People tend to put a lot of focus on themselves. Either to work on their problems or try to enjoy their lives. And then there is a select group of people that put too much of their focus on others that they forget to pay attention to themselves.
Over the years people seem to be more and more busy with themselves and at a given moment it turns them into a self-centered person. Every conversation turns into their plans or problems, possibly comparing their life with yours. Why do people do this? Are we really putting that much focus on ourselves??
The last few weeks of summer vacation had been so long because I was mostly inside my house. And what's also inside? My thoughts. Like anyone else, I mainly distracted myself by reading books or watching YouTube videos.
It's actually unbelievable because when I was supposed to relax, I was stressing myself out with everything I had to do. I thought I had to order new school supplies for my next college year; pens, notebooks, and a new backpack. But I barely use pens and notebooks so the only reasonable thing to worry about is a new backpack.
So in the end I was worrying too much about nothing while I was supposed to be relaxing. My entire vacation felt like I was unable to relax because I was constantly consumed by my thoughts.
With so much time on my hands, I would expect to be more physically active like going out to eat, going shopping with friends, or maybe having a little picnic outside. And I did do some of those things but it cost me soo much energy.
And now school starts again and yet I managed to create different problems in my head. If I am quiet on the outside, my mind will be super busy on the inside. That's a skill and a curse wrapped in one blanket.
But once I got that moment of pure bliss. All the noise stops. Everything stands still. Just you and the world. I call it the reality breather. It's like you stop to look around and nothing feels real. Almost like we are figurines in a dollhouse. The trees didn't look real and the houses looked like plastic.
It's hard to understand if you haven't experienced that feeling of leaving your thoughts and just looking around fully blank. I feel like we put too much pressure on things we think that matter but forget to see how we are still living. Like we are on a rock floating in space where gravity keeps us steady on the ground and what worries me is if I can buy the things I want??
Quite sad to see some people thinking so full of themselves and constantly comparing with others. You have limited time on your hands and this is how you decide to spend it?? The only thing you are doing is showing how highly you think of yourself (which is quite good to have that self-love) and making others feel bad about you or themselves.
The funny thing is people already have enough going on in their lives and now a self-centered person decides to appear.
No thank you.
Just feel like social media is bringing out some of the worst qualities in people. Normally they say that friends can have a bad influence on you, but what about the larger group of people with access to the internet who are entitled to their own opinion?? Surely they also influence us.
I'm just saying, don't waste time on things that other people make you believe matter. Because eventually, you are going to stress yourself out for not being a certain way or doing a certain thing. Who cares?? You are the one dictating your own life and whatever you do you have to take responsibility for your behavior.
I don't know about you but I rather do something I truly want to instead of someone else bragging about it and now I want to do it too.
Take an elderly couple for example. With the time they have, they invest it in doing things they really want and share the experience together. Nothing matters other than the life they have together. So why not live like that when we still have all this time and not wait till later.
One thing is for sure, I will not allow myself to be influenced by people who deliberately point out they have everything.
Are you??
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